There is no gravity, the world just sucks.

[akainagi]

For those who have never been to nursing school, let me enlighten you as to the true nature of clinical rotations:

It's like being smothered in honey and then buried up to your neck in a fire-ant hill. It's like being boiled in oil and then dipped in salt all the time with an instructor critiquing whether you scream in pitch or not. It's trying to dispense potentially lethal medications while trying to remember your five rights, your ABC's, your CPR, your R&R's, and your ABG's. All with a teacher breathing down your neck. All while wearing a *really* stupid outfit.

All I wanna do is sleep. And then study for the test I have coming up on Wednesday. Instead I'm gonna lie awake half the night stressing about my day tomorrow. And tomorrow night I'll lie awake stressing about the exam. And then I'll have one whole night off before I have to go to work for the weekend.

If that wasn't bad enough, a dozen Yuuram plot bunnies have nested in my brain, but I don't have time to write anything more than this self-pitying bitchrant. And god forbid I do spend time one anything other than schoolwork, then I feel guilty about it. I can't wait until I graduate and all I have to worry about is going to work and not killing my family members in a fit of repressed rage.

*deep breath*

*crash*

nite nite.

Comments

[moonlit-page.livejournal.com]

*hugs you gently*

[akainagi.livejournal.com]

*sniffle*
You're such a sweetie. I needed to vent a little. Thanks for putting up with it.

[moonlit-page.livejournal.com]

Goodness me, with all that you've got on you right now, ain't no thing. *hugs more*

[elsie21.livejournal.com]

I wish you the very best of luck on the exam. I can't tell you not to stress (personally I get more bent out of shape when someone tells me to relax when it's obvious I'm already not relaxed), but I do hope that despite the anxiety you do well and can enjoy your night off.

[akainagi.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I lived through clinical today, which is saying something.
And the more I study the more comfortable I'm getting with the materials. It's just intimidating topics to be tested on (CPR, codes, cardiac arrest, major burns, end-of-life issues).
Thanks so much for caring. Even just telling someone to relax lets them know you're thinking about them.