Kotoba no Renkinjutsushi ~ 言葉の錬金術師 ~

I go back to therapy tomorrow which honestly scares the shit out of me since I've been out of it so long. It was bad enough when I was going regularly; an hour a week of pathetic angsty whinging. Now I have to recap the epic fail that has been my life since I got out of the hospital months ago.

Meds still being adjusted, my concentration is completely fucked and I'm still depressed as all hell. I started the summer with two immediate relatives, and now only one is talking to me, although the blame for that sits squarely on both our shoulders. And it's probably for the best. My uncle is literally incapable of responding to frustration with anything but rage, and I don't need that right now. And he's better off not getting involved in my so-called-angsty-life as it stands right now.

My mother, on the other hand, is trying. But she has no clue. And she doesn't really want to have one, either. She'll sit there and tell me how dumb it was to go in the hospital in the first place. Despite the fact that if I hadn't gone, I very probably wouldn't be alive to type this pathetic, self-pitying bitchrant of a post.

To recap: FML.

After a trip to Berlin's picturesque emergency department, I have a strained trapezius, a prescription for flereril and the night off.

Damn, but my neck f***ing hurts. And I feel bad about calling in, but I don't think they want me dispensing medications to someone's grandma while hopped up on muscle relaxants. I suppose it's an accomplishment making it through last night and not leaving early.

And I think I've heard the words "Is this workman's comp?" about fifteen times this morning.
Touchy, touchy.

... I turn into a big ol' honkin bi-yatch.
Just warning you.
I so looking forward to trying to work all night with one of those masks on my face. I'll probably pass out ... again.
I have the day off tomorrow, and I think I'll use it to sleep, look for some new anime to DL ... and sleep some more.
Speaking of series, does anyone know a good RABURESU fic. In particular one where Soubi makes Ritsuka's ears fall off (I'm a sick girl, I know). I've been looking since I started watching the series, and haven't been able to find squat.
Actually, what I *have* to do is work on my fics. I've gotten such good reviews on my Roy/Ed, I'd have to be an ungrateful bitch not to keep going with it.
Ooh! I just spoted a shiny Hotohori/Miaka fic.
Bai bai.