oh poor jim. he can't win for losing. I would like to believe here in my little bubble world that everything will be fine. Bones will take one look at Jim's face and just know he can't be one more person to leave the boy. Okay maybe I could get by even if Bones has to step back from him for a bit- but sort of not really. Anyways I'm a first timer on your journal and have read through some of your entries. It's such a platitude but seriously it does get better as you get older. I speak from experience. I am bi-polar and was not correctly diagnosed until I was 39. I'm 49 now and can say with absolute certainty that it gets better with age. Maybe the problems don't really change but in general getting older gives you a different perspective. Things that I believed with absolutely no doubt when I was in my 20's and even early 30's don't even figure into the equation now. I thankfully have achieved that inner piece that comes with being in my 40's. Everyday I wake up and think yeah man its all good. So it sucks right now no two ways about it. But I believe you only have so much energy to go round each day-prioritise your needs and have at it. Seriously at the end of the day is it really worth the effort of trying to figure out why people behave the way they do. my dr. said You beat a dead horse it's still dead. Looking back I can see all the wasted energy worrying about crap that in the big picture didn't amount to anything. I know that the default is to disect every thought and feeling of yourself and others. motivations behind it all etc. But in doing so you are relinquishing that control you so value. I'm not saying don't work with your therapist by any means but perhaps you really need to just say a big F.U. and get on with being you. You have an eatting disorder but it doesn't have to define who you become as person. Sorry I went on this tangent but the whole been there done that has given me perspective.Getting caught up in this being how you identify and define yourself can in of it self be exhausting. ah you know it's the whole only having so much energy thing. anyways I hope there is something I said that can bring you some comfort. please take care and if you want to you can stay in touch with me --or not, your choice
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Date: 2012-10-10 03:00 am (UTC)F.U. and get on with being you. You have an eatting disorder but it doesn't have to define who you become as person. Sorry I went on this tangent but the whole been there done that has given me perspective.Getting caught up in this being how you identify and define yourself can in of it self be exhausting. ah you know it's the whole only having so much energy thing. anyways I hope there is something I said that can bring you some comfort. please take care and if you want to you can stay in touch with me --or not, your choice